You were a hard one for me to learn.
It took truly hating myself to finally find you.
I used to put on a good show.
I could pretend I was fine and that I liked myself.
That things were okay and there was no need to worry.
Yet I would beat myself up over the simplest of things.
I would hold myself to such impossible standards.
I have such grace, compassion, and empathy for others.
Yet applying the same to myself was impossible.
Even after hitting my lowest point and trying to take my own life I still struggled with self-love.
I even still struggle at times now, years later.
Self-love is hard, it’s admitting I am worthy, that I deserve the respect and kindness I give others.
That is often hard to do, hard to remember when I am so used to hating myself.
I know I deserve more, and I will continue to work on that knowledge.
This will be a daily practice.
Even at times one I have to take minute by minute, but I can do it. I will do it.
I know at the end of the day I truly love myself, that I am worthy of love.
I can honestly say, even when I struggle to remember it at times that I love myself.
I love myself as I am and for what I will become.
I love myself, and that’s a great feeling.
-WAF member Lauren, 2021